Choosing between one parent? Please help!?

Ok, so I'm 14 and my parents were divorced when I was 3. Through a few transactions, I now live 50/50 with each parent. However I'm a musician, and I have to lug a LOT of stuff back and forth. And honestly, I'd rather live with my mom. But I love my dad and don't want to hurt him. This really blows. Please help.